Take a Bow by Rihanna

Rihanna Lyrics
How about a round of applause 
A standing ovation 

You look so dumb right now 
Standing outside my house 
Trying to apologize 
You’re so ugly when you cry 
Please, just cut it out 

_[Chorus]_ 
Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not 
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught 
But you put on quite a show 
You really had me going 
But now it’s time to go 
Curtain’s finally closing 
That was quite a show 
Very entertaining 
But it’s over now 
Go on and take a bow 

Grab your clothes and get gone 
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on 
Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one 
This just looks like the re-run 
Please, what else is on 

_[Chorus]_ 

And don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not 
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught 
But you put on quite a show 
You really had me going 
But now it’s time to go 
Curtain’s finally closing 
That was quite a show 
Very entertaining 
But it’s over now 
Go on and take a bow 

And the award for the best liar goes to you 
For making me believe that you could be 
Faithful to me 
lets here your speech ohh 

How about a round of applause 
A standing ovation 

_[Chorus]_ 
But you put on quite a show 
You really had me going 
But now it’s time to go 
Curtain’s finally closing 
That was quite a show 
Very entertaining 
But it’s over now 
Go on and take a bow 

But it’s over now 

last days of june 2008

the past weeks of june 2008 have been a mixture of extreme emotions.  masaya, malungkot, feeling of relief and anticipation, mixture of fear for the unknown…

ang daming nangyari nitong buwan na ito.  ang bilis ng araw dahil patapos na ang june at papasok na ang july.  ang dami kong mamimiss sa mga pangyayari sa buwan ng june.  but at the same time, excited ako para sa july.  kung bakit… hindi ko pa rin alam.  siguro excited ako dun sa idea na july will be giving me new hope… a fresh start sa kung ano man ang gagawin ko for the rest of the year.

maraming mga tao ang mamimiss ko.  pero alam ko, maraming tao din ang makikilala ko at makakasalamuha sa mga darating pang araw.  yun siguro ang nagpapalakas ng loob ko at nagbibigay inspiration to bravely face tomorrow.

to go or not to go…

i’ve been constantly asked by my tita to go out with them.  tita and his son, who became my very good friend, have been texting lately.  nangangamusta at namimiss na daw ako at bakit hindi na ako dumadalaw or nagpaparamdam sa kanila.  naging nanay ko na sya halos for more than a year while i was on my fourth year sa nursing.  pag gising ko, may swissmiss na ako na ready before my duty.  tapos ang sarap pa magluto.  favorite ko ang bagoong niya.  sarap sa mangga.  

my horoscope from friendster

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)

The Bottom Line

The new relationships you need in your life should not all be romance-related.

In Detail

The new relationships your life should not be just romance-related. If you feel like you’re missing a copilot on your journey through life, you are wrong. You do not need another person to complete you. You only need to truly love the person you are. And if you are in a relationship right now, remember not to lose yourself in it. Your identity is important! After all, it is why this person cares about you so much — so cherish yourself by maintaining your identity.

i owe it to myself to have fun right?

 

babydoll dress and black honda

pretty tired, june 25, 2008

your next door driver

when you can’t keep those promises…

ang hirap pag madaling maniwala sa mga pangako.  siguro nga nagtanga-tangahan ako dati. blinded by love… blinded by false promises… blinded by the belief that i will be the only one…

 

early today, i was reminded of how cruel love can be.  i was able to talk to somebody who knew who we were and what we were 2 months ago.  i was crushed to know some information that made me question my recent relationship with this person.

 

then i realized, bakit nga ba hindi pa ako nakahalata dati.  i was never introduced as the “GF”.  lalo na sa mga girls and ex’s nya.  no wonder. para nga naman nandyan pa rin sila to back him up if he needs to.  para nga naman “available” siya sa mata ng ibang tao.  i guess the 1 1/2 years of being with this person is a scam.  kasi akala ko kami. yun pala kami nga…marami kami… ouch talaga.

 

ang mga kapatid nya daw nya na hilaw eh di nya mapapatawad sa pangmamata sa kanya. for all you know, they’re back happily together again amen.  wala na akong masabi.  sa umpisa naman ganun na ang sitwasyon.  i was made to believe that it would be different.  sabagay may pera sila. sino nga ba ako.  kapatid daw… yeah right. anong tawag mo dun…err… incest?  read between the lines.

 

siguro i am still angry.  angry for letting this person hurt me and paniwalain that i was the one.  guess what, yung ex gf nya na pinagsimulan ng lahat ng ito… mukhang ok na naman sila. parang walang nangyari.  damn! it made me realized that i did the right choice of letting this person go.  he really can’t help having his pants on pagdating sa mga babae.

 

 it’s been really frustrating.  he said he will change.  sabi nya lang yun.  from how things are going, looks like he really can’t keep his word. sabagay mukhang nag-eenjoy naman siya without me.

 

hay… promises nga ba are made to be broken?

 

 

will love come my way….again?

natanong ko lang hehe

want me to fix your car?

yesterday was my first day for our automechanic class.  i was informed that i was the only female enrolled in that specific class and they asked me if i will still push through with the said course.  i told the lady in the registrar that i’m dead serious about the class.  she was astonished but accepted me anyway.

 

anyhow, we were all waiting outside the classroom as it was still early.  when the custodian opened the classroom door.  i got questioning looks from my classmates.  they just looked and nobody bothered to ask me if i was in the right class.

 

when the instructor came, he had this surprised smile in his face.  a girl in class was a welcoming thought i guess.  he asked me why i enrolled.  i told him that i’m fascinated with cars and i wanted to know, at least, the basics on how to fix a car.  he was very much willing to accept me in class.  he had this fatherly look which was comforting.  however, he cautioned me that i’d better be ready to get my hands dirty.  i just smiled and nodded.  if only i could tell him and my classmates that i’ve been used to handling blood and other human excretions.  baka sila ang hindi kaya ng ganoon.  grease, oil and gasoline was nothing compared to that right?

 

so we proceeded with the orientation.  we were asked to watch a short film of different automotive modules.  after which, came the question and answer portion.  i had a few questions on my own and my classmates were a bit flabbergasted that, indeed, i had that much interest in vehicles.  the instructor graciously answered all my queries.

 

before the day ended, we were supposed to elect officers for the class.  i was surprised that two gentlemen nominated me for class president.  i was flattered but i declined.  i told them that i’m not sure if i will be able to attend class regularly because i’m still trying to find work in a clinic/hospital and the schedule may not permit it.  that’s when they learned about my profession.  biglang may humirit na muse na lang daw.  sabi ko na lang wala na kasi silang choice kasi ako lang ang babae and everybody laughed.  

 

i’m looking forward for another class next saturday.  we’re supposed to make an engine in the laboratory work.  and we will start by disassembling the engine.  it’s sooo interesting and i can’t wait to get my hands all greased up

 

 

kapag umuulan

bakit ba nakisabay pa

pagtulo ng luha ng langit

kasabay ng pagtulo ng sariling luha

panibagong delubyo

panibagong panaghoy sa tila napakalayong pag-asa

panibagong sakit

hanggan kailan ba?

sa panahon ng tag-ulan

tila walang katapusan

luha’y aagos

patuloy na aagos

kapag umuulan

possibilities

i’m now being commissioned by mom to help out fix the museum/library where she is connected.  i can’t say no.  sayang din ang allowance for the meantime that i have no work.  aside from the fact na nagrerequest si mama to help her out, i also liked the idea that i will just work in an office.  kaya lang i really wanted to have the clinical exposure.  mahirap lang ‘coz wala pa akong license.

 

good thing, i have a brod who’s an orthopedic surgeon.  he will try to help me daw to get a job in a clinic where he is connected.  sana nga makapasok ako para i get to get the feel na of my future work  yun lang medyo nagpapacute ang surgeon na ito kase medyo close kami nung college days ko sa up manila.  pero i really hope may slot for me.

 

right now i’m busy doing nothing hehe.  i use my time being on the net and texting/calling friends.  every saturdays, badminton game naman ang inaatupag.  sana nga maging ok na rin ang orientation namin as a volunteer for red cross.  

 

i really don’t know what tomorrow will bring.  but i do hope the gods will be kind to me this time around.  sa dami ng heartaches and pain, i think i deserve to be happy again.